Rita Jackson is a young woman on the skids, spending her time in shelters and on the dot-com-drunk streets of late 1990s San Francisco. She’s a young woman haunted by the murder of her mother when she was thirteen, and a young bride haunted by the disappearance of her husband, Jimmy, who split after a nasty argument more than a year earlier. Together Jimmy and Rita were slipping into drugs and hard times. Rita is filled with feelings of guilt and failure, and the hope that she will one day and Jimmy. She doesn’t know that he is still in the city, still in love with her, waiting tables in an expensive restaurant while trying to get a foothold in the straight life.
When Rita witnesses the aftermath of a murder, her own life is endangered. She becomes involved with Gary Shepard, a married criminal investigator drawn to the dark side of this young woman. What unfolds is a story of three flawed people struggling with themselves as much as with their circumstances, as each of them is pulled more deeply and dangerously into the consequences of their decisions. When a drunken night leads Jimmy to jeopardize his second and last chance, it seems unlikely that these sweet, damaged people will ever come to anything, let alone find and — miracle of miracles — save one another.
But fate, in Addonizio’s hands, works in strange and beautiful geometries. And redemption, she tells us, is never impossible.
Dive into the gritty and emotionally charged world of Kim Addonizio's *My Dreams Out in the Street*, a haunting novel set against the backdrop of late 1990s San Francisco. This reprint edition offers a powerful and unflinching look at the lives of characters struggling with addiction, loss, and the desperate search for redemption. Rita Jackson, the novel's compelling protagonist, is adrift. Haunted by the unsolved murder of her mother in her youth and the more recent disappearance of her husband, Jimmy, she navigates the treacherous landscape of shelters and the city's underbelly. Addicted and vulnerable, Rita grapples with profound feelings of guilt and the fragile hope that she might one day be reunited with Jimmy, the man she still loves despite their shared descent into drug abuse and hardship. Unbeknownst to Rita, Jimmy remains in San Francisco, working as a waiter in an upscale restaurant, desperately trying to pull himself out of the cycle of addiction and build a "straight" life. He is equally tormented by their separation and burdened by the choices that led to their downfall. Their paths, though seemingly divergent, are invisibly intertwined by a lingering love and a shared past they can't escape. The narrative takes a dark turn when Rita witnesses the aftermath of a murder, plunging her into even greater danger. This event throws her into the orbit of Gary Shepard, a married criminal investigator who finds himself dangerously drawn to Rita's vulnerability and the darkness that clings to her. Gary, a man wrestling with his own demons, becomes entangled in Rita's plight, further complicating the already precarious situation. *My Dreams Out in the Street* is more than just a crime story; it's a deeply human exploration of flawed individuals grappling with their circumstances and the consequences of their choices. Addonizio masterfully portrays the complexities of addiction, the corrosive effects of trauma, and the enduring power of love and hope in the face of seemingly insurmountable odds. The city of San Francisco itself becomes a character, its glittering facade masking the struggles and desperation of those living on its margins. Addonizio, a renowned poet known for her raw honesty and unflinching gaze, brings her signature style to this novel. Her writing is both lyrical and visceral, capturing the raw emotions and harsh realities of her characters' lives. She doesn't shy away from the darkness, but she also illuminates the moments of grace and connection that offer a glimmer of hope amidst the despair. Critics have praised *My Dreams Out in the Street* for its compelling characters, its gritty realism, and its ultimately hopeful message. Addonizio's masterful storytelling creates a world that is both heartbreaking and beautiful, leaving a lasting impression on the reader. This novel is a must-read for anyone who appreciates literary fiction that tackles tough subjects with sensitivity and insight. It's a story of survival, resilience, and the enduring possibility of redemption, even in the most unlikely of circumstances.